Fallen Feather
Fifty-thousand tears have cried
Tears that shatter the sky, leaving the clouds
Sleeping so long, maybe to wake this time
Before reaching the bottom floor
Going under the sky,
Where the stars shine, yet they hide
The soft face, gentle
Brightly beaming heaven’s power
Left brittle, breaking apart
A Scream pierces this nightly vision
As the blood covers away this beauty
The figure that stands in the field of innocence
For a long time, life given of this
Too long now the shadow passes over the field
Crawling beneath my skin the loneliness rules
Pain of over regret stings my soul
As I hear the sinister laughter ring aloud
Confusing, a control never ending
These walls are closing in, so insecure
The bells, I can hear them, ringing
Marking a time of celebration, yet tragedy
What manner of thing is this foreshadowing now?
Dark has the field grown
As the sun hides away from the Earth
The innocence to be lost, forever
My soul trembles from such thoughts
Stinging inside my chest
The heart longing to live right now
To embrace what is to be, to change what is
That happiness is granted and given
Understandable that it is in the right place for now
Still it doesn’t chase away these thoughts
That swim around my very mind
“Leave alone this broken vessel,” I scream
My life, would’ve been given, free
No question asked, just in that moment
No mere being this is to be
The purity of nothing else known
Eyes, to melt away all evil
A smile of a Goddess
To me, that she is, just that indeed
Yet now restrained my heart
Sinister laughter torments these ears of mine
The darkness plagues me, constantly
I know that this is to be good for her
In her life lived, this to be deserved
Such a life, this to offer her, that happiness she is
Backed away I stood, offering my all
Not careful enough
I allowed my very soul to attach to her
Now gone, she shall be
“Oh vex me not anymore
Be gone with these thoughts” I shout
This life moves on in times call
Just around the corner, to be 19
So young now but not to be for long
All these senses of mine
Screaming out for relief
That one single touch
Let them explode in life
To feel what desires to be felt
I retract my hand in fear
Fear of my own being
Fear of what shall be done
“What vain injustice is this
That has marked me in such a way?
What ill thing, stops me now?”
Everything I’ve ever wanted, I could have
Everything that I desire, could be mine
The open hand offers it to me
All that is required
Is for me to reach out and take it
To but simply take it, to seize this moment
Where does this fear derive from?
Why now do I wish to escape this place?
Let I, draw breath just one last time
So as I collapse down upon this Earth
To heaven sent, or hell sent
I may always remember the taste of this sweet air
This air that flows freely from her face
Let the fragrance forever be my reminder
Let it be my damnation torment
For it has already marked my life as such
The mere thoughts, the mere presence of her
I cannot free myself from such desire
Even the torment of it, grants me a will of life
And now gone from this view she shall be
The Goddess pulled down from the heavens’
In what shall display the beautiful whiteness of glory
Then tainted, within the darkness of night
As the last strands of innocence are removed
My heart stings with bitter sorrow
As tears fall freely
I cry aloud to the heavens
Wishing to free myself from the burning in my chest
But my words, the words I wish to speak
I cannot utter them
My desires to be the wishes I have dreamt
Push against my chest
Such great pressure to be released
Falling down upon the ground
Gasping for whatever air is left to be
As my hands taint themselves in the dirt
Forces of Nature swarm my being
Robbing me blind, in senses
So much I’ve given than received
So much more I am willing to give
My life in her place let her live to be forever
And then, just maybe then
To be made complete; a lie
My entire body trembles and shakes
No other beauty of such sweetness
Have ever my eyes seen
A sweetness to be forever locked away
What steps would one take to be what is dreamt?
If this one opportunity arrived
Would one seize it? To live it is as hoped?
Or just let, drift away… forever into the winds of time
Such poisonous thoughts scourge my mettle
What would I do? To live my dream
What would I be willing to give up?
As a thief to be, to rob this life
The life of what shall become
Is never the truth of what shall truly be
What now is this that plagues me so?
How am I to escape this place?
Chains hold me to this ground
The roses grow too close
The stems bury in deep into my chest
The thorns rip my heart to pieces
The moon’s child, I see so clearly
Her voice filling the air with such beauty
I cannot help but shed these tears
Pain, not known by others
Swells as the oceans of old
Vast as the Stars
Deep as the Universe
Cold as the Darkness
I see her, that same smile
The Goddess, so true once was
Once, I thought things were to be as always
Just to think, there shall be another day
It all now comes too soon
Time freezes my soul
As to trap me here for all eternity
To mock me, to have its fun with me
Keeping me always just one step away
Just out of reach
Her eyes lock with mine
For just a moment
She then looks away and walks off
To join in the arms of another
The moon falls, forever
As the chains pull me back down
Into the black abyss of death
Where Love, is only a word…
Will these memories ever fade?
They haunt me, even now
Before the future of events happen
I see them within my mind
As the field of innocence is burned
As fifty-thousand tears fall
Lives changed to whatever
My longing, my desire
To be the one to hold her late at night
To be the one to calm away her fears
To be the one to touch her soft skin
To be the one to embrace her all night long
To be the one…To love her
Sealed within hopelessness of life
All that once was, is gone
All that is now, is changing
All that shall be, nothing…
And still my wish, my dream
I cannot utter to the skies
For I see her smile
I know she is happy
She needs to be happy
I let the shadows of darkness take me
Down into the depths of death
Encasing me within my place
This tomb now my resting place
I slowly close the lid
Drawing in that last final breath
Sealing the air deep in my lungs
Embedding it, as to never forget it
Letting my eyes wash over the sky
Painting a picture within my own mind
Of the ways of old
The cement scrapes together
As closer now the tomb is closing
The sky glistens with bitter hope
I see her face outline in the stars
It begins to fade
Supernova…
Then darkness, the tomb is almost closed
Just a small glimmer of light now
A whisper echoes in the darkness there of
“I Love You”
The tomb, now sealed tight
With a plaque that reads
“Here entombed, is Love’s Death”
A gentle breeze taste the air
And down from the sky falls
Gently swaying, back and forth
Until finally landing upon the tomb
A Fallen Feather…
